I sit with my hands folded, neatly,
neatly to contain the insanity
neatly to pretend that I have everything under control
neatly to ground the left to the right
neatly to let the emotions peel and curl in a nice, neat
pile
neat stacks of emotions forming orange peel ringlets at my
feet.
Neat like the letter piles, crumpling inward, glowing orange,
brown, and black.
Neat like the memories, semantically arranged in my mind.
Neat like our bodies lying next to eachother, this limb neatly
folded over that.
Neat like our good-byes, softly spoken through streaming tears
and damp hair.
Neat like the phone calls, the deafening silence, the
words sticking to our throats.
Neat like the sickness in
our hearts, the nausea, the confusion.Neat like the ghost dreams of ghost feelings in a ghost house
with a white picket fence.
Neat like the numbness holding back the tears.
Neat like the promises that echo back the lies.
Neat like the lingering pain tied up in neat little boxes,
someone else's mess.
To you I was always someone else's mess.
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